June 2018 – The Valley of Darkness

For all of our marriage my husband has been the primary earner, unfortunately he has had a spate of unemployment and I am the sole earner at the moment. We are barley scraping by in most areas and behind in others. I hate the feeling of uncertainty in the future especially financially. We were just recovering from the last bout of unemployment and we are now in this one for over a year. We financially can’t make it on what I make, so we need my husband to be employed.

Being unemployed, especially long term, takes a toll on your psyche. One heck of a toll. The feelings of worthlessness, the depression, the hopelessness, the fear and the isolation. I remember those feelings well.

I do hope he finds something soon.

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This blog is a personal exercise in not driving myself insane with all the absolute garbage going on in the world. I am a firm believer that we can disagree on items of politics, favorite colors, the benefits of summer heat and a thousand other things. I do not believe that we can disagree on things like discrimination, racism, and treating other human beings like garbage. So if you don’t agree that racism and treating people like less then human beings deserving basic compassion and dignity is basic human decency then I really am not sure we can get along, be civil or otherwise engage in conversation.

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Proverbs 31:10-30

A wife of noble character who can find?
    She is worth far more than rubies.
Her husband has full confidence in her
    and lacks nothing of value.
She brings him good, not harm,
    all the days of her life.

She selects wool and flax
    and works with eager hands.
She is like the merchant ships,
    bringing her food from afar.
She gets up while it is still night;
    she provides food for her family
    and portions for her female servants.
She considers a field and buys it;
    out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
She sets about her work vigorously;
    her arms are strong for her tasks.
She sees that her trading is profitable,
    and her lamp does not go out at night.
In her hand she holds the distaff
    and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
She opens her arms to the poor
    and extends her hands to the needy.
When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
    for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
She makes coverings for her bed;
    she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
Her husband is respected at the city gate,
    where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
She makes linen garments and sells them,
    and supplies the merchants with sashes.
She is clothed with strength and dignity;
    she can laugh at the days to come.

She speaks with wisdom,
    and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
She watches over the affairs of her household
    and does not eat the bread of idleness.
Her children arise and call her blessed;
    her husband also, and he praises her:
“Many women do noble things,
    but you surpass them all.”
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
    but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.

Month: June 2018

Employment…

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