The last few months

I keep trying to re-start blogging but never quite get there. The last few months have been a whirl wind of activity and emotions.

I suffered two pregnancy losses in the span of several months, losing Ezra in January and then Judith & Anthony in April. I have been working on me quite a lot with all my various issues between therapy and spiritual direction and making a little bit of progress getting healthier mentally and spiritually.

Recently I lost a very dear friend, Sarah Taylor, someone I only knew for a year, that slipped into my life first because of work, then as a friend and eventually as someone I considered family. She and I shared so much in common. We both suffered from anxiety and depression, we both had tough childhoods, we both went through times where we rebelled and returned to faith. We shared our struggles and we were each other’s accountability partner in adoration and prayer, and each other’s sounding boards when anxieties got the better of us… now granted, hugely imperfectly, but we tried. Regardless of her imperfections, there was a Joy that was present in her that radiated from her because of her faith in God. I have had the wonderful opportunity to speak to others who have known her, and we are all saying the same thing, that even though we are praying for her and offering mass intentions for her, each time we have an overwhelming sense of peace and love wash over us as if we are being told, not to worry.

Ironically as I am preparing to travel to NC on Thursday for her Funeral on Friday, I was supposed to be visiting her this week anyway, I was supposed to visit her at her new place just outside Asheville, NC and we were going to hit the brewery and wineries in the area and stay up all night and go to adoration in the middle of the night and just relax and be silly. Instead of visiting my friend and having fun, I am helping to say good bye for now to someone who is dearly loved by many many people who had the privilege of walking this life with her.

May Sarah and all the faithfully departed rest in the peace and presence of God.

Proverbs 31:10-30

A wife of noble character who can find?
    She is worth far more than rubies.
Her husband has full confidence in her
    and lacks nothing of value.
She brings him good, not harm,
    all the days of her life.

She selects wool and flax
    and works with eager hands.
She is like the merchant ships,
    bringing her food from afar.
She gets up while it is still night;
    she provides food for her family
    and portions for her female servants.
She considers a field and buys it;
    out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
She sets about her work vigorously;
    her arms are strong for her tasks.
She sees that her trading is profitable,
    and her lamp does not go out at night.
In her hand she holds the distaff
    and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
She opens her arms to the poor
    and extends her hands to the needy.
When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
    for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
She makes coverings for her bed;
    she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
Her husband is respected at the city gate,
    where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
She makes linen garments and sells them,
    and supplies the merchants with sashes.
She is clothed with strength and dignity;
    she can laugh at the days to come.

She speaks with wisdom,
    and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
She watches over the affairs of her household
    and does not eat the bread of idleness.
Her children arise and call her blessed;
    her husband also, and he praises her:
“Many women do noble things,
    but you surpass them all.”
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
    but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.

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