There is something about travel that makes me anxious. I think it is mainly because of my chronic illnesses/pain. Not knowing what something is going to do to me.
Surprisingly my pain levels as we settle into the hotel here in High Point, NC are fairly low. I almost feel “normal”.
I am currently reading A Guide to Christian Meditation by Fr. John Bartunek. I an not too far in yet but it is very interesting so far.
One of my biggest ‘struggles’ for the last few years has been my prayer life. After quite a few crappy moments in life building up and the resulting emotional turmoil, resentments and anger. In many ways I am rediscovering some of the “basics”. The hardness surrounding my heart has been shattered and I am trying figure out what is “Normal” in my faith life.
The emotional interaction with my God, the relationship with my faith and my religion, my thought processes on forgiveness of not only myself but others has been rapidly changing as my prayer life gets better. I told someone recently, if it was anyone other than Christ, you would consider it an emotional affair.
Basically, I have found myself moving from knowing that God exists, to actually having faith and falling in love with Himself. I am also becoming more comfortable with calling myself a person of faith. It is who I am, this is what I believe, and I am finding peace and healing.